One month has past.
At first it felt like unbridled freedom.
Liberation of the most exciting sort.
First one week -- then two-- of sleep alone.
Upon the arrival of week three the chains have slipped themselves back on.
This must be the feeling a fish has when it has escaped its watery prison only to discover it has jumped into much worse.
Yet, boredom is hardly worse.
I once wrote on a blog, seemingly forever ago, that I felt that I was floating helplessly in a vast ocean. Waiting for a shift in the current to drag me to wherever it may.
That haunting feeling has begun to creep its way back into existence.
I must remind it of direction and purpose.
Those two words muddled in anger, wrath, pain, and hurt. Each layer of anger removed only uncovers a layer of pain or wrath. I am unsure how far to dig for purpose.
I am told it is there, waiting dormant for its re-discovery. As if buried in Pompeiian fashion by a sudden burst of fire which tore my world apart.
Maybe to discover the world is to be released from one cage at a time.
At first it felt like unbridled freedom.
Liberation of the most exciting sort.
First one week -- then two-- of sleep alone.
Upon the arrival of week three the chains have slipped themselves back on.
This must be the feeling a fish has when it has escaped its watery prison only to discover it has jumped into much worse.
Yet, boredom is hardly worse.
I once wrote on a blog, seemingly forever ago, that I felt that I was floating helplessly in a vast ocean. Waiting for a shift in the current to drag me to wherever it may.
That haunting feeling has begun to creep its way back into existence.
I must remind it of direction and purpose.
Those two words muddled in anger, wrath, pain, and hurt. Each layer of anger removed only uncovers a layer of pain or wrath. I am unsure how far to dig for purpose.
I am told it is there, waiting dormant for its re-discovery. As if buried in Pompeiian fashion by a sudden burst of fire which tore my world apart.
Maybe to discover the world is to be released from one cage at a time.