Hunger still is at bay. I am amazed really.
The only struggle I've come into is my mood.
My mood has been a little flippant.

I am struggling keeping judgements at bay.  I've also had a bit of a tiff with a friend. I don't think this is because of food though, I think it just happened at the same time. 

I didn't expect the hardest part of my fast being my attitude towards my surroundings. I am unsure of my awareness of my attitude being new or the attitude itself being new. I am torn between the two. Have I been this way all along and its taken 2 days of fasting for me to notice? I wanted to be shown things and I guess this is new. The other possibility is aspects of my personality are 'shining' through the struggle of saying no to myself.
Either way I've already encountered bits of me that I am keen on getting rid of.

Although I'm not hungry I do realize how much I just WANT food. My stomach isn't growling, there is no pain, no discomfort for my little hunger beast in my stomach. He's silent. However, the satisfaction/pleasure that food gives has just kicked in full after I said that I couldn't have it. The difficult part is just not snacking when you feel the urge (bored or otherwise)
I want breads and pasta the most followed by chicken. Apparently thats my 'go to' food. hahah

Physically I am still bouncy. I woke up at 5 so I'm running out of steam but that's normal by 9pm the same day.  My never ending cold/allergies kicked in yesterday too and I didnt really sleep a whole lot. I remember looking at the clock often. I tried to nap today and couldn't do that either.

Well I want to end on a verse that I found reading today. Lamentations of all books.

I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”
The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him

The use of portion really stood out to me. I've been expecting something big to happen this week but it may be gradual. He is what I need, my provider and portion. I must wait therefore for the good to come. But what I must do through this, through my character flaws and all, is continually seek him.

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